It is okay to not be okay

 I am sorry but when did it become so shameful to not be okay?

Where in our society did we decide we need to have it all together because honestly I am sick of it. Somewhere along the line we started to believe that we need to be perfect, that we need to put out this certain picture, that others have it worse than us, so we need to suck it up and we stopped caring for ourselves. We denied ourselves all in the name of pretending to be okay. 

We keep getting thrown all these curve balls and we expect ourselves to handle it like its normal I am sorry but nothing in school taught me how to navigate a global pandemic, nothing taught me what to do when wars were all around, Nothing taught me what to do when it got so expensive just to live. When did we start believing we needed to pretend we know what we are doing? 

This is all some bullshit in my opinion. Life is hard sometimes, no matter what you believe, no matter what your faith is rooted in we are all going to break down sometimes, have hard days, hard seasons, times when we can’t get out of bed. 

I have been there. I know what it is like to not be able to get out of bed, I know what it is like to run away from it all. I know what it is like to want to die because life is so unbearable. But for the love of it all why do we still tip toe around it like it is scary, like we want to protect people? It’s bullshit. Call it out. Look out for each other. Talk about it. Ask for help, offer help, take the help, because we are all going through something. It may look different than the person next to you but we are all going through something. Something dark, something scary, something we feel no one else will understand but its okay. IT IS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY. We don’t need to hide it, be embarrassed about it. Pretend like we have it all together. 

Stop tip toeing around mental health. It is not embarrassing. It is not shameful. It is a part of being human in this really messed up world and sometimes we aren’t going to handle it very well and that’s okay we are all trying our best. 

I know what it is like to be on medication and I know what it is like to be off medication. I know what it is like to be in counseling and I know what it is like to be out of counseling and I know what it is like to feel like I have it all together and I know what it is like to fall apart, truly and utterly fall apart. I have been suicidal and I have been in some dark places, but you know what I refuse to stop talking about it. The more we talk about it the less scary it is. Normalize getting help. Normalize talking about mental health, because honestly this is all getting ridiculous.